I was slow…real slow…to warm up to the idea of adoption. Because I have wrinkles, y’all! There are days when I can barely keep up with life. I feel tired. And I’m sorta bored with High Ho Cheery O. Been there done that.
Coby didn’t give up either. He continued to pray and pursue God for direction to fill in the blank of who, where & when. He had given me months to sort this thing out with God. And then God started to fill in the puzzle pieces. Coby stayed up late one night praying for God to direct our paths and lead us to the one that was meant to be ours. After praying, he was unable to go to sleep and went to read his email. The first email he read was from a friend (Greg Green) who has 2 adopted boys from Haiti, asking for some medical advice. The next one was the ACL 2012 line-up. He noticed that our worship pastor, Aaron Ivey, was on the schedule to play. Clicking on the link provided, he was directed to the song, “Amos Story.” It seemed pretty clear that there was a theme here–and it was Haiti.
The next morning he shared his new insight with me. I still wasn’t feeling it.
Genesis 18:12-14, “Abraham and Sarah were old by this time, very old. Sarah was far past the age for having babies. Sarah laughed within herself, “An old woman like me? Get pregnant? With this old man of a husband?” God said to Abraham, “Why did Sarah laugh saying, ‘Me? Have a baby? An old woman like me?’ Is anything too hard for God?”
I finally concurred that God was speaking to my husband. I decided to obey and get on board too. Coby and I prayed that morning that God would also stir my heart. After praying together in our kitchen, I called my friend Cara Green who has 2 adopted boys from Haiti. Coby thought it would be a good idea to talk to her about my fears and worries. Look what she was doing moments before I called!!
[From Cara’s fb message on May 31, 2012 ] “Not sure if I made this clear yesterday. While the boys were taking a nap I was looking at the dossier requirements for Three Angels. After a bit it became clear that the only thing I could really do right now without spending any money would be to put a few extra birth certificates aside. So, I thought I’d go on the Three Angels facebook page and just pray for the babies and their one-day-to-be families. Then you called me about a half hour later! I love stuff like that!!!!”
Within seconds, I went from a doubting Sarah to a muddled mess. I began filling out our adoption paperwork immediately. Somebody out there needs to hear this…there are times when OBEDIENCE comes first, regardless of our emotion. Our emotions cannot always be trusted.
On a Sunday in the spring of 2012, my hubby came home from church heavy hearted. I can recall the look on his face as if it were yesterday. He was holding onto something, and I knew it was something SERIOUS and BIG. He said that we needed to “talk.” Instantly my mind began to wander as I searched to recall what in the world had I done to hurt him so. But, little did I know, that his burden had not been caused by me.
With tears in his eyes, he shared with me how he felt that God was calling our family to adopt. He described it as if God had placed a ton of bricks on his heart. We had just come home from church, where we heard a piercing sermon on adoption. I could hear the words from James 1:27 echoing in my brain, “Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress...”
You see, I’m not the youngest chick on the block. Our youngest child was 8 at the time and I was thinking exit strategy. In just 10 years, we would become empty nesters. No more huge piles of laundry. No more taxi driving. No more responsibilities for lil’ ones. Life could finally be centered around me. Vacations to far away places, beach time, and coffee with friends. So, immediately, with no hesitation, my response back to Coby was “I’m not feeling it hon. My answer is no.”
To seek comfort. To be selfish. To choose recreation. That’s what my flesh would choose to do.
Thankfully, that’s not where I ultimately ended up…so stay tuned for more posts to come.