When My Faith is Frail




I’m feeling terrible—I couldn’t feel worse!
    Get me on my feet again. You promised, remember?
When I told my story, you responded;
    train me well in your deep wisdom.
Help me understand these things inside and out
    so I can ponder your miracle-wonders.
My sad life’s dilapidated, a falling-down barn;
    build me up again by your Word.
Barricade the road that goes Nowhere;
    grace me with your clear revelation.
I choose the true road to Somewhere,
    I post your road signs at every curve and corner.
I grasp and cling to whatever you tell me;
    God, don’t let me down!
I’ll run the course you lay out for me
    if you’ll just show me how.
Psalm 119:30-32 MSG

It is a fight to believe in an invisible, seemingly far-away God who you cannot physically touch, see, or smell. It often sounds absurd that we would believe in God and heaven and hell. But possibly even more absurd is not only believing that God is real…but actually living like it. To live like God is real and has a purpose for us in each day. Now that sounds more like a challenge.

But in our everyday, run-of-the-mill kind of life, there come days when we just can’t see it. We can’t see the purpose through the thick clouds, or find our way through the redwood forest. We don’t know how God is possibly working things together for our good because what we see doesn’t look good in any way, shape, or fashion. To be honest, what we see seems quite the opposite. It’s horrific. Depressing. Downright bad. How could God possibly be involved in it? It is during days like this that the fight to believe gets real.

No more messing around.

It is time to take our faith out for a spin.

I have sat right here a time or two. And most likely, you have as well. A place where discontentment comes lurking as you find yourself choking to catch a breath. The bills are stacking high on the kitchen counter or you feel the pain of rejection. Your kids are constantly quarreling or you cannot muster the strength to keep going. You can’t get along with your spouse, or maybe it’s you boss who is giving you fits. Don’t matter what you current predicament may be…the truth is that it isn’t fun.

During times like this, I am confronted with the fact that I have kept a piece of my life off-limits to God. I have put up a barrier, telling God, “You can do whatever you want with my life…EXCEPT THAT, of course, would be too much for me.” I fail to forget that God has given me everything. The clothes on my back, the roof over my head, and even the children who bear my image.

God constructs our lives whether we give him permission or not. He doesn’t wait around for our okay. He does as He pleases…and He also does it for our own good. If we believe the Bible, we must believe that the heart of our sovereign, unpredictable, powerful, and omniscient God is good. He is always good. It is our fight for control that gets us in trouble. It is the same fight that began long ago with Adam and Eve in the garden. They wanted to do things their way rather than listen to God. They wanted to be the ones holding the control button.

We try to manipulate, twist and turn, and get cozy and comfortable because somewhere deep down within we are afraid of what might happen if we let go. Somewhere deep down we are afraid to say “yes” to God. We are afraid He may send us to Siberia or the uttermost ends of the earth or cause us to take an oath of poverty. We worry He might cause us to get deathly ill, or be scoffed at by others for being a “Jesus freak.” We think that God will do the most terrible things to us, rather than living a life of ease. But I have to ask you a question…What are you most afraid of? What are you afraid of being stripped of? What do you think God will make you do? Do you really think you are better than God at making decisions for your life?

When we have a false belief about God, we develop a barrier in our relationship. It is because what we see with our physical eyes seems more real than an invisible God that we cannot see or touch. We allow things like fear, worry, and doubt to creep in, causing us to lose sight of God. God is a God who has laid down His life for us. We must believe that He can be trusted. And even if we have to journey through suffering, we must believe that we will be better because of it.

We must live a life that has more than earth as its focus.

Are you trusting God today? What barriers get in your way (for example, doubt, distractions, and disappointment) and why? What are you holding on to?


Friday Reminder

God wants you to tilt your head up for a moment to see that there is a bigger story unfolding right now. An eternal story is taking shape, in which you have a role. There is more going on then whiny kids and temper-tantrums and traffic that doesn’t go anywhere. There is more to life than over-stuffed closets and runny noses at night. Yes, I promise you there is more than hurt feelings and arguments and feeling like you are no good. God wants you to see a glimpse of Him.


“For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.” 2 Cor. 4:17-18



I want to live like Jesus. I hope that I willingly surrender in order to seek Him more. I  wish I didn’t crave the things of this world. But I have a problem. There is a war going on inside. I cannot figure out how to manipulate God to give me exactly what I want and when I want it. And if I’m going to live the kind of life that is pleasing to God…then I need a heart transplant. I am going to need more faith. Bucket loads of it. Which, by the way, is sold out on Amazon and the world’s knock-off version doesn’t quite satisfy.

We often get stuck right here. We can feel the tension rising inside. We think we want more faith, yet we act like it is in short supply. Which begs the question, “What is faith?” and “How do I get more?”

Hebrews 11:1 says, “Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see” (NLT). Unfortunately, many of us have mistaken belief for faith because we’ve been disappointed with the results of our prayers. We think faith is something we can muster up. We try harder. We pray longer.

Faith differs from belief. We can believe a lot of different things. Some right. Some wrong. We can be persuaded. We can change our mind. We can back up our reasoning with theories and explanations. But if we are not careful, we can apply the same technique to God. We can cut and paste Scripture in an effort to get God to perform. This is not authentic faith.

Real faith has only one focus: GOD.

Mark 11:22 exhorts us to, “Have faith in God.” And it becomes challenging for us to place our hopes, our dreams, and desires in the hands of an unseen God. We fear His plans will not align with ours. His will may be contrary to our own. Our safe, comfortable, and predictable life may be rattled. But when we finally step out and take a leap of faith and discover that God is real, we are changed. And this is my pray for each of us…that we be changed more and more in order to live a life that brings glory to God.

God is God. He knows what He is doing. Our prayers release God’s power for God’s purposes. Our faith has substance when it is placed in God and God alone. When we abandon our own made-up idea of how our prayers should be answered and put our trust in God.

Faith does not know how God will bring His will into being; faith knows God will bring His will into being.

God doesn’t have a “one-size-fits-all” answer to our prayers. His ways are always higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9). His plans stretch farther than our immediate circumstances. He is mysterious and does as He wills. The one thing God is most after is His glory because it is how we come to know God is real. And even in instances when we suffer, we must trust that God will somehow be glorified.

We must come smack dab and face the fact that our faith is not based on how we feel. Our feelings are fleeting and changing and moody (just being honest), and cannot see with clarity the confidence that faith provides. If we want to be people who pray powerful prayers…the kind of prayers that change lives…then we have to have our faith grounded in God’s Word. Only then will we be able to stand amidst the chaos in our lives. As Oswald Chambers once said, “Faith is deliberate confidence in the character of God whose ways you may not understand at the time.”

God doesn’t do things as we would expect. In fact, from our earthly vantage point, life seems excruciatingly hard sometimes. Throughout Scripture, we see that there must be another way….a way that seems absurdly difficult and involves the desertion of our well thought-out plans and assumed privileges. We see Israelites who aimlessly wander in the wilderness (Exodus 18) and a giant who was slayed by a mere child (1 Samuel 17). We see a man swallowed up by a fish for three days (Jonah 1) and a donkey who has the ability to speak words (Numbers 22). We see the mouths of lions shut up (Daniel 6), and men who walk in the fire (Daniel 3). I really could go on and on. But most absurd of all is that God would make Himself man and consider us a part of His divine plan. He sent Jesus, His very own Son, to be brutally murdered on our behalf. God has given us everything at such a great cost. Maybe it is time we reconsider how we think our lives should go. Maybe it is time to surrender, and stop putting up such a fight. Maybe it is time that we recognize that God’s ways are always better than ours.

The only way we get more faith is from the source Himself. God is the initiator. Our faith grows from experiencing God firsthand. “So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ” (Romans 10:17).

Are you able to give God glory in the midst of your suffering? Faith involves risk, which means sometimes we have to stretch and believe that God is good. 



When We Are Spiritually Stuck

We read the Bible and envy the fact that God walked in the garden with Adam and Eve, personally confronted Moses in the fiery bush, spoke from the whirlwind to Job, and called to Samuel in the dark. Over and over and over again we see accounts where God seemed so tangible. Within reach. Let’s be honest, it doesn’t quite seem fair.

Maybe you find yourself in an invisible stuck place today, unable to make space for God to penetrate the deep recesses of your soul. You want to make God a priority in your life, yet struggle to overcome. There are disappointments, bitterness, worries, sadness, and struggles that seem to take preeminence. Barging right on in.

God seems so far away.

God spoke through dreams, and writing on the wall, and from a thunderous cloud…and to Saul on the road to Damascus with a blinding light. And I believe that God is still capable of such wonders today. However, in our hope for the supernatural, unexpected, extraordinary miracle…we forget that the road is often hard. We may have the misconception that being a Christian translates to a life of ease. And due to this false notion, we wait to go to God until we have our life cleaned up. Ducks in a row. All prettied up and tied with a bow.

We must realize that God is after more than neat, pretty packages. He is okay with messy lives too. We must admit that we need God just as we are. Times of spiritual dryness are normal, not an anomaly. There is no need for you to pretend.

As believers, we all experience such times. The sermon seems boring and your thoughts are drifting afar. The worship music seems endless and you can’t wait to sit down. You read the Bible and it seems like an empty chore. Small groups. Christian articles. Times of prayer. Nothing seems to break through the cadence of your routine life.

You may feel the uncomfortable distance widening between who you know you are and the Christian you pretend to be. The guilt and tension are rising, but you are not sure where to begin.

Start with some honesty. Tell God exactly how you feel. Confess your wandering soul. Sometimes as we dig within, we find the root of our sin. I wish I could give you a neat, tidy answer…but in this instance, there is not a “one-size-fits-all.” Somewhere within us lies some misplaced expectations, appalling apathy, buried hurts, or raw disappointment.

But here is the good news…we have a God who is unsurprised by our indifference and has unrelentlessly set His affection upon us before the beginning of time! He has shown His commitment to you by sending Jesus! He is devoted to you for the long-haul.

We can find freedom in being real with God. Go ahead and confess how you feel to Him. Talk it out. By unraveling our emotions, we begin to connect the dots between the truth of who God is versus how we feel. It is easy to get lost in this dissonance, but I promise you…it is worth fighting through!

Remind yourself of God’s faithfulness. No one knows you better than God Himself. What you are experiencing today does not come as a surprise to God. God knows your most desperate situation, your deepest longings, your silent cries, your biggest disappointments, your personal shortcomings, your loneliness moments, your painful rejections, and your greatest doubts. He knows it all. It doesn’t take Him off guard. And there is not a single thought or emotion that has not been covered by the blood of Christ.

It is God who purposed to put breath in your lungs this very day (Job 33:4). God has set aside good works for you to do (Eph. 2:10). His grace is sufficient for you (2 Cor. 12:9).

Receive God’s love. You were bought for a price because God loves you. You were worth dying for. He hasn’t stopped loving you. It is a continuous, unending, every single day kind of love. On days when we don’t deserve it. On days when we give God the cold shoulder. Let’s not forget that God loves us even then.

God is able to pull you through this lull. You are not the only one who has been in a stuck place before. Meditate on the words of David. Ask God to do it for you!

I waited patiently for the LORD;
he inclined to me and heard my cry.
2He drew me up from the pit of destruction,
out of the miry bog,
and set my feet upon a rock,
making my steps secure.
3He put a new song in my mouth,
a song of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear,
and put their trust in the LORD.

Psalm 40:1-3



How Can We Hear the Voice of God?

If God tells us to listen to His Son, then it must be possible for us to hear Him. God would not instruct us to do something that is impossible for us to do. But that being said, I know that we often struggle to discern whether or not we are hearing the voice of God. Sometimes it doesn’t seem all that clear.

For starters, in order to hear the voice of God, we must belong to Him. Jesus promises that His sheep HEAR him, FOLLOW him, and are KNOWN by him (John 10:27). We belong to Jesus if we have been saved by grace. As His, we are promised that we will recognize His voice. 

The primary way we hear the voice of God is through His Word. When Matthew, Mark, Luke, James, and John sat down to pen Scripture, God Himself inspired them. Scripture is not man-made. It is not social hype. It is not a boring account of history. It is relevant to each and every one of us today. We can be assured that Scripture is the living, breathing word of God and we must spend time in the Word if we want to hear from Him.

Jesus is the living Word. As you read Scripture, ask God to speak to you. To speak life into your current circumstances. To bring His Word alive. God’s will never contradicts His Word.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made. In him was life, and the life was the light of men. John 1:1-4



Although Scripture was penned over 2,000 years ago, it is still alive and active. It pertains to whatever you are facing today. At this very moment. It can shed light on your most difficult struggle. It can breath fresh life into your dry bones. It can cause you to rise up, and walk again. As you read, expect God to speak to you. 

 “All that the Father has is mine; therefore I said that he will take what is mine and declare it to you.” John 16:15


“For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.” Hebrews 4:12

“For no prophecy was ever produced by the will of man, but men spoke from God as they were carried along by the Holy Spirit.” 2 Peter 1:21

“All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness,” 2 Timothy 3:16


In the creation account found in Genesis 1, we are told that God spoke the whole world into existence. He spoke and it was done. However, God wasn’t finished. He still speaks to us today in the here and now. In Hebrews 4:12 we are told, “the word of God is alive and active.” This means God’s Word exposes our doubt, unbelief, and hidden sin. God’s Word is personal and intimate and when we read it, we hear the voice of God. Authoritatively. Unmistakably. Cutting right to our core.


Have you ever stopped to consider how incredibly powerful the breath of God must be? Do you believe there is power in His Word? Ask God to speak to you right now. And then, start believing that He can. Ask God to raise up your dry bones.


Happy Easter!

IMG_9904May we be reminded that our Savior is risen. He is not dead! No grave could hold him in the ground. He reigns on high…and is worth living for.

You are loved by God Himself!



The Biggest Mistake Made in Prayer

Prayer clearly is important! Prayer and praise are referenced 375 times and 377 times, respectively, in Scripture. As believers, we know we are supposed to pray. Yet, prayer remains such a mystery.

Not surprisingly, there are many misconceptions about prayer. Perhaps even without our acknowledgment, our prayers are wrongly motivated. However, one of the most detrimental mistakes we can make is to treat prayer as a “Honey Do” list for God. To erroneously view prayer as a means to get what we want. We focus on our request rather than on God, and in doing so, lose sight of Him. Our need becomes the center of attention, minimizing the greatness of our Almighty God.

As I reflect on my prayer life over the years, it is obvious that my mindset has often been giving God a list of orders and commands. I would tell God how I wanted things done, and then wait for Him to perform. Sometimes, God would answer my prayers according to my plan. Sometimes, He would say no. Naively, the context of my prayers was limited to a list for which I wanted answers. And over time, when my prayers were not answered according to my liking, I became disappointed and frustrated with God.

You see, unknowingly, I had put limitations on God. My prayers consisted of my list of needs, rather than seeing God might have a better answer. I presented my request and then would ask God to meet it. If He did not act quickly, I would jump in to lend a helping hand.

Like a pharmacy counter, I wanted my prescription filled exactly as I intended. Leaving God no wiggle room.

Prayer does encompass making our requests known to God, but not because He doesn’t already know it. “Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.” Matthew 6:8 God always knows what is best, and He has the power to do it! When feelings of helplessness overwhelm us, may we be reminded that we serve a great big God and we need Him! The real acid test of faith comes from leaving our hands out of a situation and allowing God to do as He pleases.

Prayer is bigger than a list.

God is capable of doing “far more abundantly than we ask or think” (Ephesians 3:20). Why then, should we tell Him how? Maybe He has something much grander in mind. Maybe He has a greater purpose.


Think about your current prayer requests. How would you like to see your current needs answered? Do you have an unwarranted expectation of God?


Will God Change Me?

Prayer and faith go hand-in-hand. The promise underlying all prayer is that God has promised to accomplish in you what He requires of you. He is doing a work in you right now. Life change begins with God. It is a work of God that is accomplished in us through the work of the Holy Spirit (read more about life change HERE). Philippians 1:6 reminds us that God will finish what He began.

“And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” Phi. 1:6

God has great purpose for you today. Let me say that again…God has great purpose for you today. Embrace whatever you face throughout your day with great resolve, knowing full well that God has purposed for you to live every moment. He is directing your steps. Ask Him to bring to remembrance “every good and perfect gift” and to rejoice in whatever comes your way. Ask Him to mold and shape you in life’s most challenging moments.

“This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24

If we want to know God more, we will have to be deliberate in our actions. Through the process of prayer, God is changing us from one degree of glory to another. Hallelujah! That should give us reason to break out in resounding praise. God has promised Himself to us by the blood covenant of Jesus. What He says will be done. He is fashioning us into His unique and precious design. He is preparing our hearts to receive His answer. He is making us His dwelling place here on earth. Read the verse below and pay attention to what God says He will do.


“And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes and be careful to obey my rules.” Ezekiel 36:26-27

God will. God will take our old, tattered, resistant spirit and give us a heart like Him.

God will remove our dead, burdened, and heavy heart of stone and give us a heart like Him. God will put His very own Spirit…the Spirit of God…inside of us. Imagine it, will you? One of the greatest promises in Scripture is that God is making us more like Him!


How do you see God changing you? In what additional areas would you like to be changed?


You Can Know God Personally

God’s Word is chock-full of astounding promises and today we will take a look at a few. Knowing God at a deep, intimate level grows out of a relationship with Him. The kind of relationship that develops over time by walking through the journey of life. Through the highs and the lows, the valleys, and mountains. If we want to know God in this way, we will need to intentionally set aside time to spend with Him.

Relationship doesn’t just happen. It is no accident.

I’m talking about being deliberate.

And it’s not always easy.

When the going gets tough, we often get jolted. We don’t want to work things through when we don’t see eye-to-eye. But I promise you, it is worth the hard stuff. The kind of rich, deep, satisfying relationship that we all long and dream for is available to us if we pursue God with all of our heart, soul, and mind.

God wants to have a relationship with YOU!


When talking about His people, the Israelites, in the Old Testament, we are reminded of the sweet relationship God has with His children. He carries you during tough times.

Deuteronomy 1:31, “The LORD your God who goes before you will himself fight for you, just as he did for you in Egypt before your eyes, and in the wilderness, where you have seen how the LORD your God carried you, as a man carries his son, all the way that you went until you came to this place.’


We don’t need to worry about what to say or do when confronted by others for the sake of the Gospel. God will give us the words to say. 

Matthew 10:20, “For it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.”

God considers you part of His family…as dear as His mother, brother, or sister. What an extraordinary promise to be called a child of God!

Matthew 12:50, “For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother.”

God has chosen to give you His Kingdom. You have been appointed to eternal life!

Luke 12:30-32, “For all these things the nations of the world eagerly seek; but your Father knows that you need these things. “But seek His kingdom, and these things will be added to you. “Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has chosen gladly to give you the kingdom.”

I hope you noticed one thing in particular…every single promise is hinged to a relationship requirement. God’s promises are tied to a requirement: we must know Him. His guarantees are directed to those He calls “children of God.”

The church cannot be healthy without holding tightly to God’s Word and to sound doctrine. Methods may change but the Bible must remain. And not just opened but pored over. Studied. The Bride of Christ will grow sick and weak without it. (Beth Moore, “Entrusted”.

My friends, we’ve gotta dig into God’s Word in order to know Him. No longer can we survive with a watered down, mixed up, homemade remedy that some have strewn together on their own. God’s Word is God’s Word. We cannot piecemeal it together, picking out the pieces that we like. The Gospel should not be treated like a buffet line. It is time for this generation to rise up…be diligent and prove faithful.

And if we do, we have one incredible promise…we will know God for ourselves!

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What is God teaching you? What truth from God’s Word has resonated with you this past week?



10 Must-Read Lessons from Motherhood

Hey Readers,

I’ve had several of you ask about my lack of blog posting as of late. I haven’t abandoned you! I’ve just been caught up in the whirlwind of busyness. And one thing I have learned over the past sixteen years of ministry is that my family takes priority. As a mom, I am blessed with the God-given calling to bear the title, MOM. My kids need me.

It would be much more glorious to pursue initiatives where I can receive an occasional pat on the back. But truth be told, I’ve probably learned more from swapping up spilled milk and sitting in traffic as I carpool little ones to-and-fro.

There are many lessons that have come from motherhood.

Patience really is a virtue. It is not something that comes naturally and must be cultivated by life’s own challenging circumstances over the course of time. 

I’ve learned that middle-school boys smell like sweat about 98.9% of the time.

Maybe don’t get a dog. Or at least not a puppy. Unless you are ready to say goodbye to your favorite pair of shoes. Besides, as much as your kids promise to feed the dog and walk her regularly…they will fail. There will be some broken promises in the end. But regardless, despite the agony of dog-training…you might end up with a new best friend. 

I’ve learned humility by following after some well-taught advice from a mentoring mom I once had. She told me true JOY is discovered by putting life in proper perspective: Jesus, Others, and then You. 

I realized that when you mess up, you can ask your kids for forgiveness. They have the biggest hearts. Modeling confession and forgiveness goes a long ways.

I’ve seen myself through a different lens…and I haven’t always liked what I see. Selfishness. Pride. A short fuse. Parenting opens your eyes to see where there is still some work to be done in your own life. 

Girl drama is temporary. The season will pass. And you will enjoy reliving memories later on.

Make home your safe place for your kiddos to be real…and to know that regardless of what happens, they will be loved.

Don’t neglect your relationship with your spouse. He is important too! Date nights are necessary to nurture intimacy. You will be glad in the long run.

God always comes first. Pursue Him with all of your heart, soul, and mind and everything else will fall into place. 

I promise I will be back soon! If you’re looking for more…may I point you HERE to my latest guest blog at Lift Up Your Day, “Why is Confession Important?”


Your friend on the journey,

Sue A. Allen

What lessons have you learned from parenting?

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