When we Struggle to Believe

The hustle and bustle of the start of school are definitely now in full swing. We find ourselves settling in, finding our way, maneuvering around traffic and shopping carts. The sound of routine is a welcoming sound, but let’s be mindful to include Jesus in our daily scene. 


It’s easy to jump start our day with an agenda of everything that needs to be done. There are uniforms to wash and dishes to be put away, and milk to pick up on our way. It is here in our everyday chaos that we can get caught up in our own lil’ worlds. And forget the importance of intentionally seeking Jesus, the Life Giver of our souls.

The disciples, they saw Jesus day in and day out. They traveled with him everywhere. They saw him heal the lame and give sight to the blind, and make the leper’s sores go away. They saw two loaves and five fish feed the masses, and watched Lazarus com forth from the grave. They saw it all, and still they struggled…they struggled to believe.

Miracle after miracle was performed. “Everyone who touched it [garment of Jesus] was made well” (Mark 6:56). Despite the miraculous signs that Jesus performed, the disciples wrestled within. Is Jesus really who He says He is? Can we trust what He says?

We, like the disciples, have our doubts. We question if God’s Word is the truth. Maybe we’ve experienced Jesus up close in our lives, but in the midst of our chaos we forget. Maybe we settle for the things we can see…the things we can reach out and touch. Maybe we determine to do things our way, rather than take a step of faith.

But here today, Jesus is still present. He is calling on us to believe. He is telling us our emotions are untrustworthy. We will have to stand firm in our faith. Even if life is sailing smoothly, we must not neglect time in God’s Word. His Word is a lamp unto our feet (Psalm 119:105). In the midst of the storm and in the calm, Jesus beckons us to spend time with Him alone. 

“Be strong and let your heart take courage, All you who hope in the LORD.” 1 Cor. 16:13

Rather than waiting for an emotional response, choose to be faithful today. Grab your Bible and spend time with God, and ask Him to do a work in your heart.

What has God taught you in the desert times of your life?