Let’s be honest, it is pretty easy to sit back and simply enjoy the ride sometimes. Coast along because everything is just fine. Like we like it. But isn’t it confounding…
I’ll readily admit…I didn’t handle it well. Bedtime was quickly approaching and our sons were not eagerly going to bed. When my husband and I got caught up in a conversation with our eldest daughter, they took the opportunity to run. Darting into the game room, we could hear them bouncing about. Honestly, we didn’t think much about it.
We heard the frantic cry for help. As I turned around the corner, I could see Kade cradling his little brother in his arms. Blood gushing out of our toddler’s forehead and dripping onto the floor.
I don’t like blood.
I get a pit in my stomach and uncontrollable thoughts start running through my mind.
I want life to be perfect.
Like Adam and Eve once enjoyed.
I am fortunate beyond belief to have a husband who just so happens to be a pediatric ER doctor (I know. I know…life is not fair). Like Humpty Dumpty, he was able to glue him all back together again. But here is what really is troubling me…how I allowed a bruise to the forehead rattle me to my core. I could feel the uneasiness in my inward being. The feeling of “I wish I was in control. I would have never allowed this to happen. I don’t want my son to have a scar.”
I had to remind myself that I don’t get to call the shots. Someone much greater than I is in control. And besides, there’s this really cool guy talked about a lot in the Bible who has a scar. So seriously, what’s the big deal?
God allows our little worlds to be rocked so we are reminded that we need Him. We do. We need to know that we cannot do this thing called life all on our own. We need a Savior. A Rescuer. Someone to come along our side.
I admit I need Him. I need Jesus more than ever before. Because somewhere in the mass hysteria, I realized that I needed Him even more. And maybe you realize it too. When you don’t have the answers. When your stomach is twisted and tied in two. When a jolt comes into your life and rocks your boat like a typhoon. Guess what? You don’t have to have all the answers. You only have to cry out to the One who knows.
Whatever you are going through today, may you be encouraged to know that I struggle too. That not every day is a bright shiny day. I have to put aside my agenda, my pride, my worries, my cares, and my insecurities and say, “Lord, I am going to trust you.” For anyone reading this…God is just trying to get real with you. To lean you deeper into His grace and expand your horizon.
I am the Lord, and there is no other,
besides me there is no God;
I equip you, though you do not know me,
that people may know, from the rising of the sun
and from the west, that there is none besides me;
I am the Lord, and there is no other.
I form light and create darkness,
I make well-being and create calamity,
I am the Lord, who does all these things.
He alone is God. There is none other. He makes well-being and creates calamity…so that people will know. People will know it is God who equips you.
How is God making Himself known in your life?