Tomorrow. It is finally drawing near. We leave for Haiti on a missions trip with a team of nearly 50 people, most of whom have never visited a third-world country. We will be going to MyLifeSpeaks, an organization whose passion is orphan prevention. My husband runs the medical clinic in this rural village called Neply. All around me I can see God working. I can see God providing.
We are taking our first dental team. Incredible!
We are pulling together a VBS for 200 kids. Magnificent!
We will be conducting a spa day for the 72:14 program (read more about it here). Super fun!
Some will be building desks for the new classroom at LIFE Academy (yes, you can help too. Click here to find out how). Inspirational!
And yet despite all of this, I can feel worry creeping in.
It is the week prior to leaving that the littlest of hesitations begin to creep in. Do I really need to go? Goodness, there are plenty of others who will. Will something terrible happen?
You see, last summer when I went I was bit by a mosquito carrying chikungunya. The virus resulted in fever hovering around 103. Your bones feel like they are breaking, with joint pain beyond belief. In most, the virus dissipates after a few days. But that wasn’t the case for me. I came home and struggled to move. Tears would overcome me from the pain. For the past several months, I’ve been on rheumatoid arthritis medication. Ugh. It has been frustratingly debilitating!
But I think I’m better now. Hallelujah and Amen! And through this journey of pain and suffering I have drawn so much closer to Jesus. I have been able to share my story with doctors and nurses whose doors I would have never sojourned in. I have seen God working and moving and shaking and yes, it was for my good.
However, it is the cause of much angst within me. Will something terrible happen again?
Many of us are experts at projecting the unknown on to a new experience.
God promises to go before us and behind us (Deuteronomy 31:8). We are hemmed in (Psalm 139:5). He commands us to take courage and be strong (Joshua 1:9). Yet I know it is a struggle for us. We take our prior experiences and assume they will happen again. We fret about other people’s stories and think to ourselves, “That’s going to happen to me.” But friends, will you join me in praying for boldness…and that fear will not settle in?
"Cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved." Psalm 55:22
The word “cast” is a fishing term referring to casting a net. We often picture a person with a rod and reel. But in this ancient day, fishing poles did not exist. Fishing was done by 2 or more men and a large net was thrown out. What a great illustration for us to remember. We are to ask others for help when our worries become way too worrisome.
What are you worrying about today? Will you allow me to join you in prayer?