Unable to Find the Words

In loving memoryThe life of a precious young girl, Chrisnerline, unexpectedly came to an end on Friday afternoon. While making her way home from school near Neply, Haiti, she was killed in a moto (aka, motorcycle) accident. It is at times like these, we struggle with finding the right words to say.

Placing our hope in the Lord can become such a challenge

Chrisnerline had already experienced such hardship in her little life. Her mother died suddenly and her father was unable to care for her. Therefore, she came into the care of @myLIFEspeaks, an organization I care deeply about. Chrisnerlene was a typically developed three year old girl who lived life by helping others. You see, most of her brothers and sisters are disabled and need tremendous care. In small ways, Chrisnerline exemplified Christ by serving them. “She loved to laugh, sing, and dance! She was strong willed and sassy and will always be known as our precious, fun-loving resident diva.” (words by Anne Marie Stern, myLIFEspeaks missionary).

Loss of life…oh boy, it’s a tough one to handle. At times like these we struggle to find the right words to say. Ecclesiastes 3:4 reminds us, “a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;” Losing someone whom we hold dear is difficult to see from an earthly perspective. We’re human. We’re frail. We’re weak. And by all means, we can be emotional wrecks. It’s at times like these I turn to Scripture to find comfort and peace.

In Scripture, King David experienced loss, too. His best friend, Jonathan, died while in battle. Upon hearing the news, David wanted all the details. He wanted to rehearse it over and over in his head, hoping to find out the terrible news was not true. Wishing somehow the news bearers were mistaken in the identity of Jonathan.

So what happened?” said David. “What’s the news?” He said, “The Israelites have fled the battlefield, leaving a lot of their dead comrades behind. And Saul and his son Jonathan are dead.David pressed the young soldier for details: “How do you know for sure that Saul and Jonathan are dead?” 2 Samuel 1:4-5

In the next few verses found in 2 Samuel 1, we see the heart of a personal and relatable king who feels emotions of grief, worry, doubt and remorse. What if I had been there? Would there be different results? We see through the eyes of a man who wrestled with God, a very personal Savior. And King David says these words…

O my dear brother Jonathan,
    I’m crushed by your death.” 2 Samuel 1:26

God permits such feelings so we can know Him more. So we can long for Heaven more. So we can be sickened by the work of the Enemy and hate evil even more. Certainly, there is a time to mourn and during such time, we can relate to our Savior even more deeply, understanding the experience of death on the cross.

But, it doesn’t end there. Our hope is not hopeless by ending in death. Because we serve a “God [who] is faithful, through whom you were called into fellowship with His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.” (1 Corinthians 1:8) And in Christ, we place our hope and trust. He is the reason we live.

Returning to the words of King David…after the passage of time…wounded hearts were healed. Hope was restored. Because, after all, there was still work to be done. In the very next chapter, we see these words penned…

In the course of time, David inquired of the Lord…” 2 Samuel 2:1

David reached a point where he was ready to move on. And he asked the Lord, “What now?” Some things just take a matter of time.

In precious memory of Chrisnerline…we mourn your loss and know you have been welcomed into the arms of our Lord and Savior. You will be missed here on earth, but we look forward to the day when we will see you again. May God grant us comfort and peace until we meet again. So we, like David, may say, “What now?”